Katie

I've been married for 365 days and 7 hours and 5 minutes approximately.
I have a house,
a relatively successful career,
and the hottest station wagon you've ever seen.
I'm pretty much exactly where I want to be.

Homemade sangria was made for enjoying during the hurricane
with remenants finished tonight.

How can I be so busy yet feel so boring?
My mind runs nonstop sometimes lately.
Reminds me of years ago, except the thoughts are more varied now.
I miss a lot of things,
but I'm too lazy to probably do anything about them.
I'm too lazy to even write anything more here.

does anyone use this anymore?
married life is good, so i guess i don't have a reason to complain.
work and school keep me busy,
but old friends made me think of this site and revisit.

i can't believe i haven't posted since october.
apparently this forum is going out of style.
i wish i could say it was a good thing that i was too busy to post,
and it mostly is,
but there is always darkness.

new computer soon maybe?
making my own beer these days.
i have faith it will be good.
stepping back from the process, it feels pretty crazy i'm getting married.
crazy in the best way possible.
everyone's having babies.
and i love my nephew so much!
the last shows i recollect attending are one or two new brunswick basement shows with jen and rapid cities
plus the jimmy eat world show that i passed out at.

i'm almost half way to an mba.
what else is new?
hopefully getting a promotion at work soon,
to a job further away but with less bullshit.
bike rides for the season started today.
27 miles.
a good number.

haven't felt really shitty in a couple months, so i guess it was about time.
found out this morning that i'm being transferred to another building.
this sucks because it's totally untherapuetic for my ladies and it's going to put me through a whole lot of stress.
i'll need to build new relationships and work with a much lower functioning population which has barely any restraints,
which is good,
but i will be bored out of my mind.
i really like the psychiatric aspect of my job and that's being ripped away from me pretty much.
it was bound to happen sooner or later i guess,
i was just hoping to get out before it did.
now my motivation has severely taken off to get out of that place.
hell, i even applied to work as a dental receptionist last week.
but this wasn't enough so then my mom had to get turned down for her social security disability.
it's nice that they don't just say "DECLINED" and give no explanation,
unfortunately, they go into great detail in a letter about her specific issues and why she's not disabled ENOUGH get collect.
maybe they didn't get the memo that she was almost committed two weeks ago.
maybe if we go a more crazy route that will help.
it's actually quite funny that my dad claimed he was going to kill himself while in the emergency room then asked for steak when they kept calling security and not letting my parents leave when all they'd come for was for my mom to get a physical under the charity care they're temporarily eligible for.  let me explain though, my mom hadnt eaten all day and they gave her a chicken salad, so i think my dad actually thought he could get a free meal.

i have a feeling the holidays are going to be awful and awkward this year in terms of my family.
except for my sister in law having a baby,
but anything involving my parents will be pretty disengaging.
this is really stacking up to be the worst year ever.
granted the one before was great, and the one after hopefully fantastic.
i guess i'm just paying my dues.

apparently Rain Machine = vocalist from TV on the Radio = Kyp Malone
he is playing at the First Unitarian Chuch via Johnny Brenda's on 10/23
i found this out because Dead Man's Bones is playing the Church on 10/16
I think I have gained a greater appreciation for this venue.
not that i have been there more than once or twice...

this weather is perfect for long sleeves and no jacket.
this weather is perfect for open windows and no air conditioning.
i wish it was this temperature more often.

i wish ray all the best with his baby.
it will exist truly in the hazards of this world any minute now.
or any minute tomorrow.
babies are so exciting,
i can't wait for my brother's so i can love it to death.

i've been feeling randomly nostalgic lately
for live music and jameson,
neither of which i've had very much of recently.

my hair is finally getting long again.
i feel more like myself when it's like that.
i guess i can't cut it again until next fall.
we're almost at a wedding date in august.
it will be a small affair.
ceremony, dinner, sunset cruise, bonfire.

my life feels like its calming down.
i'm sure when the holidays come around that won't be true.
but for now i'm learning to step back.

i am a quarter century old.
i remember that when my brother turned 25 (twelve years ago) i thought it was a really big deal.
although this has been a pretty horrible summer so far,
in the grand scheme, things still seem to be on track.
i feel i have direction and true ambition and things are about to start moving very quickly.
at the end of the day i am very thankful to be where i am at twenty-five,
and i'm even more anxious to see where i go in the next five years.
 

this is Tray. she is an uglydoll who loves blueberry pie!
she was one of my first birthday presents and is awesome because i also love blueberry pie!
much of my other presents can be seen with the completion of my new bike which should be happening soon!!
rode my longest ride yesterday (34 miles) and my fastest ride tonight (17.1 mph average speed)!

i feel like i want to write an entry.
but i want to hand write it.
i don't think i've done that in years.
things are hard lately.
too much, too quick.
i don't know if i'm making the right decisions or not.
i just want to go to bed at night knowing that at least i tried to do the right thing.
i guess i will get through though.
i guess i don't really have a choice.

i just found my new favorite beach boys album!
it's kind of two,
because of remastering, i guess, its two albums in one.
and since its two-in-one even on digital download from amazon that counts as one!
it's called carl and the passions - so tough/holland.
i heard 'sail on, sailor' on sirius today driving home from work,
and was very surprised to find it was the beach boys.
i'm so excited about this!

july fourth coming up.
four days off form the workhell.
supposedly a carnival and fireworks will be involved!
and i'm petitioning for good weather on thursday to kick it all off with my first trip to the beach!
hooray for being tan despite no beach visits, bicycling, and the start of birthday month!

there are very few things from north jersey i enjoy.
but there are a few people that i miss very much.